New milestones come with tears

With every new thing Ever does I cry. I cry because I'm so happy that I get to have her in my life and I cry because I have another baby who never got to be. Ever warms my heart with every little smile and coo. Just the other night she was having a "conversation" with her Grammy (See video). She is 11 weeks & 6 days old in the video.

Over the past few days she has become more vocal. I'm so happy to have her in my life but I am holding onto the pain of not having her sister, Brinley, here as well. I'm seeing everyday what I missed out on with Brinley and that is hard on the heart.

Ceiling Fan

Dear Ever,

It is the funniest thing to me but you love the ceiling fan. You can be fussing and all we have to do is turn the ceiling fan on and place you where you can see it and you just start smiling.

It doesn't take much to entertain you. <3

Love you,
     Your momma

10 Weeks Old today

I haven't had much time to get on here and post updates about Ever. I have been spending my time enjoying her. She is growing so much each and every day. She can hold her head up pretty good by now and loves sticking her tongue out. Here she is Christmas smiling and sticking out her tongue. Sorry the audio is a little off...

She started daycare last week and I started back to work. I miss her so much during the day. I hate that I will miss out on seeing her most the day.

Today she is 10 weeks old. Here is a video of her checking out her mobile above the changing table. She loves that thing! ( I was wrong in the video and said she was 9 weeks old)

Well I'm off to bed. I start my last semester of school tomorrow so it is an early morning for me. Good night.